Poems by Julia Meylor Simpson 2018

JULIA MEYLOR SIMPSON. I’ve been writing poems since I was able to read a Dr. Seuss book. About 10 years ago, I started a blog where I shared my poems, and my poems were published in a number of literary journals around the country. Then, for several reasons, I put the poetry on the back shelf. I’m now retired and would love to challenge myself to write poetry every day during the month of April.


In a Castle hidden among the cornfields,
protected with two moats drudged into the wet earth,
there is a pine tree being decorated with snowflakes.

In a room of brilliant hues of reds and deep shades of greens,
I am wearing the biggest smile I can manage
while confronted with the upcoming inevitable departure from this place
where I grew wings and became acquainted with the skies.

Happiness was the warmest it had ever been there,
even on the coldest of December nights
when the banks of the River Maas wore a frost
and the American Dream I had been taught to chase
donned a different flag and danced on the dew.

I can forever return to these memories but never this time;
that autumn was a season in this lifetime that was all too fleeting
and longing pangs in the gut with a dull ache.


In the photo, the old woman
perches on a bench and squints behind wire rims.
Properly dressed in pumps, hose and beads,
she holds a tea towel she is embroidering.
My father said his Aunt Julia returned once a year
in summer to help butcher hogs.
He said she homesteaded in the Dakotas.

I don’t know much more about my namesake.
But I can imagine.

How she agreed to move with her young husband
to 160 acres in the middle of nowhere.
How she fought over what must fit in the shallow wagon box.
How more was left behind than she could bear.
How their land didn’t look anything like the posters.
How she lost two children to scarlet fever
and her husband in a blizzard.
How the meadowlarks sang on a spring morning.
How the neighbor woman spoke only Russian.
How she married a widower with five children.
How the wind never, ever stopped.

In the photo, the old woman
looks straight at the camera, her mouth
set in a straight line like a Dakota horizon.
Between her brows, two deep furrows
like a plowed field,
like mine.

The psychology of forgetfulness

A young mom leaves her six-month-old daughter
sitting in a shopping cart in the swimsuit section
of Ann & Hope. She races through the store
to find the child singing in the carriage.

A traveler leaves her carry-on sitting on a bench
in a busy airport, drives home, does the laundry,
remembers her bag, drives back to the airport
and finds the bag still sitting were she’d left it.

A poet leaves her camera in the flower gardens
at Emily Dickinson’s home in Amherst, takes
the tour with other guests, writes in her journal
and finds the camera hanging from a tree limb.

Maybe, it’s not
the loss of memory we should fear,
but the moment our luck
runs out.

A random sentence from Carol Shields’ novel, Swann

I puzzled for days over one scribbled passage hoping for a spill of light, but decided finally that the pen scratches must read “Door latch broken.”

The end

And, finally, hope left,
after years of holding on to a solitary thread
that unspooled to nothing.

Night windows

She takes photos of writers’ bedroom windows —
Emily, Walt, Frost, Twain and Thoreau,
Stegner, Laura, Louisa and Cather.
She imagines how they stirred awake on hot summer nights,
watched curtains lift in the breeze,
listened for what gathered in the dark,
and looked out these windows as the full moon inked shadows.

And then how that moon pulled them outside,
to fall down on a cool expanse of lawn,
to breathe in black soil and pine,
to listen to the sound of semis
on cracked cement highways miles away,
to lift and spin in a spiral of stars,
to wake and count the dark windows of the farmhouse
and wonder why
she lies here


Anticipating the end of the world

 In 1964, I had just turned seven,
hardly old enough to watch
The Huntley-Brinkley Report.
But somehow, somewhere,

I got it in my head that the world
was going to end.
And this doomsday deadline held
my crystal ball gaze for days.

I remember kneeling at the center
of the double bed I shared with my sister
and pleading with God to delay
the end of the world.

I hadn’t learned to ride a two-wheeler.
I hadn’t made my First Communion.
I hadn’t read all the Dr. Seuss books in the library.

Every day for a week,
my prayers became more insistent
as I anticipated my final days on Earth.

I never shared these fears with anyone
except God. Well, maybe the Blessed Virgin, too,
who I thought was the real boss.

Then I remember sitting in class
and it was snowing. I thought, this is it.
This is the day. But it wasn’t,
and I went home on the bus.

Tonight I googled “doomsday predictions.
and learned that celebrity psychic Jean Dixon
regularly predicted the end of the world
in the early 1960s.

And so, this is how the world goes on,
somehow, some way.
The children save us all.

That’s what you want to do.
Write till it hurts.
Write till it stops hurting.
Write till the whole world
finally says, “Okay, we get it now.”

But there’s so much that can go wrong.
Beware writing your heart out.
They’d rather you eat your heart out
than wear it on your sleeve.
Beware. Then write.

Forgive me

To celebrate tenuous sunshine
I walk the bluff along the Sound
and find myself in a stand of young trees
surrounded by ancient rock fences.

Here, silence, until a flick of sapphire
careens sharply in front of me,
and then another and another.
The air fills with ruffled feathers.

I look up to hear a dozen blue jays
give me hell for invading their space.
I apologize aloud for trespassing
and return to my car by a different path.


And what is it
the crickets say
each night when
the wind pushes
the curtains aside?

They announce
as we fall asleep
to their lullaby
and follow us
through our days.

I will be listening
to crickets
when I die.

I used to lift high in the sky

And every night was an adventure.
I didn’t fly, I simply lifted at will,
looking down without fear
at the world below.

No one looked up
while I was suspended above
and I had no concerns
about the people below.
I didn’t see a string,
but something guided me,
softly lifting and lightly touching down.

Tonight, I will more than likely
be naked while no one notices
or running late to take a test
that I haven’t studied for.

No wonder I lie awake for hours.

Just like that

Dad said
some days were better than others.
On good days he’d see Mom
walk into the bedroom with his folded clothes
or pass by the living room with a dust cloth.

He’d smell bread baking
or coffee brewing in the kitchen.
A glimpse or a whiff.
Just enough, he said.

Once, he said,
when he drove uptown for the mail,
he fell asleep, slumped behind the wheel.
He woke to rapping on his window.
“Jerry, wake up. You’re late. It’s time!”
She was right there,
and then she was gone, he said.

At Dad’s funeral,
my brother tells us his dream.
He’s sitting in a bar having a drink with Dad,
when Mom walks in. She tells Dad to get home.
And just like that, he gets up
and follows her out the door,
my brother said.
Just like that.

To the young woman in 47A from Hong Kong to Boston

We share slight smiles

when no one claims the empty seat between us.
Our bodies unloosen into this blessed space.

After the attendant passes out customs forms, you ask:
“Can you help me? I have never flown before.”

Dark hair, round face, wire rims, careful English, half my age.
Together, we fill in the boxes.

You are brave to fly alone.”
I tell you that I’m new at this too.

You explain: “I will live in Boston for three weeks.
My boss thinks I need this experience to advance in my career.”

And once again I am humbled by a woman’s story,
how fears and desires take hold of our days.

How we taste both panic and hope.
How we choose which one to swallow.

As she sleeps in the seat beside me for hours,
I pray she will meet kind people here.

I pray she believes she is worthy.
I pray she will be the boss someday.

I pray we always close our eyes and leap.
I pray we land on our own two feet.


Years ago, as a young wife and mother,
she craved quiet more than chocolate.
Today, a terrier yapped at her
as she hauled a trash bag to the bin.
Without thinking, she said aloud
that the dog was the only one
who’d talked to her all day.
The owner gasped and hurried on.

Her Memory
His slight body
did not collapse in flames,
but in purple clouds
that spilled him
into two glaring headlights.
Recently, she drove up
the vacant road,
wondering how the two moved on,
regained this spring day,
made peace, shared a life
with open wounds.

The Collectable

My father liked to collect things.
Before he died, we emptied his house
and people came to buy
these things.

I, too, filled my suitcase
with what few things I could carry.
Among them, this Stanley No. 27 jack plane
that sits on my fireplace mantel.

The tool’s rusty cast iron frame,
worn wood handle and knob
are attached to a beechwood base
that hides the sharp blade.

When pushed across beams and planks,
the honed edge smoothed sticking places
and leveled rough spots,
leaving behind rich wood shavings
that curled and rippled
like trails through a forest.

Tonight, for the first time,
I unhinge the plate that holds the blade
on the century-old tool,
and it descends into the thin slot.

I brush the edge against my palm.
It is whetted, keen, ready.

Keeping things in perspective

On this planet
I am one of a million people
in line for the bathroom
at football games.

I am the dearth
of the earth.
This will
always the case.
Wherever I am
I am millions of one.

When I speak
sound waves vibrate
in empty space
where no body

We all have reasons
for writing.
I write
to keep things in perspective.

Fork dreams

In dreams this sharp-tined utensil
heralds danger.

They say if you dream of eating with a fork,
you’re going to have a fight.

Dropping a fork signifies a falling out
with a friend.

Stabbing yourself with a fork
portends someone will deceive you.

If someone else is stabbed,
this person is using you.

If a woman dreams of a fork,
it warns of unhappy domestic relations.

And so tonight at dinner
she stabs roasted red bliss potatoes
and slices of tender pot roast.

The fork moves in and out of her mouth
at a table set for one.

“… One day when I went out to my wood-pile, or rather my pile of stumps, I observed two large ants, the one red, the other much larger, nearly half an inch long, and black, fiercely contending with one another.”
From ‘The Battle of the Ants’ in “Walden, or Life in the Woods” by Henry David Thoreau


On Pondering Thoreau’s Ants

Today, red and black ants battle

on a wood-pile near Walden Pond.
And Thoreau treads among the dead
on page ninety-four
of our American lit textbooks.

Sixty teenage eyeballs roll in their sockets.
“Why would anyone watch ants fight
for hours on end?”

And then:

“Why do we have to read this?”

Somewhere, still,
you must ponder these young wanderers

who live not far from your life in the woods.
as they drown like ants in honey
in your secondhand hut.

Thoreau, you deliberate
tenacity, atrocities, total destruction
as a mindless world fiercely contends
with one another.

Help me connect your world
to theirs.

Then, perhaps, a sign.

From the back row
near an open window,

thumbs drum
the top of a desk

like a cadence
out of time.

Left unsaid

The doubter in my mind
babbles on and on.
Even now. The words on the page
are not the words in my head.
I know you both.
you urge each other on.
like now,
you both fight to be heard.
So is there a third voice
that never speaks?
One that simply sighs
or holds its breath,
until both voices


Reprimanded thrice
with frigid resistance,
Spring persisted.