A Sense of Self in Hope – by Mary Curran



By Mary Curran

“May I help?” he asked.

I half turned and noted his accent, Northern European, a thin handsome face, a black over coat, a brief case. He stepped beside me on the street just before I turned into the library.

“You look distraught.” He stayed in step.

Was this a pick up line, I wondered, in a response as instinctive and sad as that of my sick old cat with her raised head at a dog’s bark in a nearby room at the vets.

“I am fine really.” I looked ahead.

We walked a few paces in silence. I kept close the words exchanged the night before in a family basement that tugged apart a marriage twenty three years in the making.

“I can see you do not want to talk. I understand.” He sounded practised in the phrases.

A second later the stranger veered away towards the subway while I walked blocks beyond the library. His intrusion stung. Was that how he saw me? Did I turn that face towards the world?

The questions stirred some remnants of a sense of self. In a gesture of defiant hope I raised my head high in the air and smiled.

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