Poems by Emily Reid Green 2017

emily reid greenEMILY REID GREEN’S poetry has appeared in publications including: Skipping Stones, Common Threads, The Font, The Linnet’s Wings, and Khroma Magazine. This spring, she will share her poetry in the Women of Appalachia Project’s “Women Speak!” performances. An unabashed bookworm and avid knitter, she lives with her family in Toledo, Ohio.

A Haiku Duet in Objects

I.
my shoes have thick soles
armor for the days ahead
kicking glass ceilings

II.
an invitation
my mattress is offering
I cannot attend

Mass

Isn’t it funny the way light plays,
how hiding it inhabits other faces and
sheds like skin, clings save for my skeleton
shell. I am left with scraps only,
the dripped leavings of ancient candle.

Maybe I could fight for morning light.
Maybe I could filter the blue hour haze,
rearrange my gaze beyond empty glass,
even momentary glimpse another ending.

Would I own the outcome? Recognize
this quality of light? I fear blindness so
downward glance to spite the dawn.

Still sun will rise above hurt feelings and
leave me shadow slouching, let me to
my work, my private war waged over
tabletop, elbows stabbing. Silence another
casualty– I am not immune to sleep
walking, to nightmare games.

I could hang myself on this hand,
surrender to solemn requiem, fingers
finding prayer in the starved darkness.

A Haibun- The Red Barn

It all started and ended with the red barn. I came to know its roadside significance one late summer worry. My hair twirled concern as miles melted toward arrival, toward expectation. They had plans for me that lived just beyond that red barn, just past the edge of comfort. Signage was insignificant: I knew the writing on another wall, so high I could never hope to reach, fingers stretched for stardom. There were no constellations. There is no consolation in this dark obsidian, my foreign future. Only return lights the candle, halos possibility.

the red barn beckons
omen becomes almost there
the promise of home

Dear Civility

You are more than door held open and chair
pulled out, more than stand up for entrance or
exit. When words leave your mouth it is
not escape. It is packing list and planning:
The world approves of your message.
Not a shirt shouting profanity over pajama bottoms,
the line between bedroom and buying groceries
barely visible. When did we start seeing a different kind
of acceptable? Or rather when did our vision impair?
It wasn’t always this way, wasn’t always middle finger
and glowing screens. Once upon a kindness
there was decency and it wore white gloves.
It dressed for dinner. And face to face it would
build conversations but only after proper
introductions. Can we ever meet again?

Let us please and thank you a place
where courtesy is common, a public space
where private is another room and nobody knows
late last night drama but you. Let us inquire after
our health, tip our hats, curtsey our dresses.

If I could wish you out of hiding I would. If I could
tip you from the yellowed pages of yesterday’s
novel I would write you a letter in cursive.

What If Avarice?

When want seeds your stomach,
its hard shell a promise

When must makes a habit
of white noise for waking

When green teeth give puncture,
the pinprick a black hole

When looking is longing,
the window as storefront

Grow some other garden,
the petals a velvet answer

Find a jukebox theme song
and midnight some flute strewn lullaby

Brush the decay away
to climb into pearl white smile

Know a friendship bracelet
of braiding that can’t be bought

Then monster defeated
Then paradise found

The Wonder Command

We’ve reached capacity and even our lashes
know it, the weighted damp that heavies our
eyelids, the tremble that fringes our fury stare.

We are possessed, broken frames and picture
paints everywhere but canvas only
a smattering, only the artist spilling over.

There is no harm in it but hazard, this
unburdening something gothic. Do we
bloody our hands acrylic? Do we
chance amongst the carnage? It is
not always violent venture but cave
mouth and legs stretched beyond breaking.

It is always frontier, a border we escape
daily, a limit we live to ignore. There is no
choice in it, not really.

The flower you placed in my palm, a single
Baby Blue Eye, small and profound, a century
gaze– It must be pressed to page since
ink cannot residence where love resides.

It is always and every place a home. So the poet
places hand over heart, buoyed by cadence,
pulsing on an ocean, writing the waves.

Navigation

As always a hesitation at the hem of
cityscape meets country sky. I exist at
the fringe though some would say frayed
the edges of my fabric. It’s not what I want,
it’s not that I don’t dream in color, my red
the kind that arrests, screeches stop, never
rusts. Morning blush finds me sitting high
on another bridge for there are thousands
stitching pavement and patchwork fields.
From this height landmarks are scarce and
difference is only a compass and its magnet
doesn’t deal in inclinations, doesn’t know
trees, doesn’t care for traffic, only a pivot
to serve the North Pole. Still there are other
reasons to turn around, to sample stars and
billboard signs. I will not apologize for
my second thoughts. It is my right to revise
destination or rather choose itinerant tourist.

I will inhabit every monument, get lost in
every corn maze. It isn’t cold feet that gives me
pause, toes touching borders– They are warm
enough with the memory of yesterday, with
steps already taken. The world told me tread
carefully, pointing to signs and signals and
all manner of manmade cautions. But I heard
only music and one foot in both worlds and
all that is left to do is dancing outside the lines.

Altitude

Like so many hearts we cross ourselves,
fingers first at foreheads, pause perhaps for
an audience, some for permission. Can you
see my faith? Can I follow the path? Then
fingers proceed to ladder, descend and rest
at the chest where urgent a pulse beat
rhythms the mystery,
the sacred among us.

It is more sign, more tactile than myth
for we are ready to receive grace. So
fingers floating upwards and side gliding
like so many ghosts we wait,
necks craned and eyes trained, certain
a miracle. The performers seek pyrotechnics,
the world set ablaze while the meek bow
heads, hope for hands outstretched–
an inheritance.

It is only conflict bridged by

a shared legacy of wanting, blinded by

spectacle or our own feet. It is only

after sacrament we save ourselves,

only after prayer we climb higher.

Not Taken

My thoughts don’t need the wind
to drift. They carry themselves to
unopened books and stones unturned
and roads not taken. They shape me
a stationary sculpture, not art but
artifact existing only behind glass.

I spent a history in preservation, in
collecting myself and all I’ve gathered
is dust. Not even fingerprints author
my existence. I am only anonymous,
arms heavy from holding the world
at a distance and now lost to me.

For all one knows a seeping sadness
at fault, for all one cares a sloth, maybe
different slopes, certain a shared descent.
It’s not for me to say which sin weighs more.
It’s not for me to hold the body of
what might have been.

geography

if the truth were made from facts
at the intersection of cold and light
this is how we find an ending
how we shed shadow selves

Gingerly

Whether carved initials cast in ancient
roots or tea-soaked journey set by
sandaled step, I inhabit love, that knotted
fire in the chest burning away inhibitions,
pluming guarded fumes. Breathe carefully–
It’s toxic, not only intoxicating. It takes
tangled root deep in the chambers, heating up my
underground, sometimes secret smoldering
in suspicions or peeling away restraint and
power unleashed– an antidote. I will keep you
in my walls. I will sit you on my window sill and
when hardened skin enough, sweeten you up,
boil you tender, drown and dry you out,
sparkling crystal stranger friend, only
to consume me, conjure spirits to
season my wanting. After all, I know
you. We will tangle taste again.

sorry

face aflame and it’s time again to
make amends when scorn smoothes
itself not soft but tolerable when
resentment is a weight no longer
bearable

there is little grace in it
pocket size not lace but tissue
kept wrinkled and wilting shoved
for shame buried under so many
bruises there is tenderness born of
walls not sentiment so we beat on
ceaseless in our resolve
to right our crooked selves
to stumble into arms open

they will fold us in
if we let them if we
warm whisper our foolishness
there will be butterflies
their kisses pardon a flutter faint
forgiveness felt like home like
hushed breath against our ear

1.
rose quartz
blush blurs the sky,
brushes cobweb worries,
carries the sacred heart
tender

2.
Promise
whispered feathers
tickling my right ear lobe,
an exercise in sitting, still
waiting

The Page Turner

There is no suspense unless I
shadow myself, step outside the space
I occupy, the seat not bench but
folding chair, seeming insignificant,
seeming secondary and by the hour

billed dispensable. They have no idea
who I am, if I choose to darken distance
under someone else’s spotlight, if
my mind wanders and hand too
hesitating over corners bent for speed, for

ease. I could unnerve them, press pause
so only evening gowns shiver, strings
silent still. I would rise. Then the knowing
begins, my leaving reverberates. It’s an absence
that pressure pulses the stage where music becomes
a question then unanswered, an impossible
mission, not even the apostles could chorus
this lost cause, not even St. Jude could bring me

back. I would not turn, having taken my chair
and their notes, all that remains a recipe for
disaster. I could stir up trouble, humble
this tuxedoed hero’s fingers, halt Italian arias,
live inveterate villain if only I would not

page turn. And sigh. There is relief in
breathing out expectations, in poise predictable.
So I save the story for another unfolding, so
I secret smile my private triumph.

The Fall

Autumn arrives strumming golden skies
grown amber as apple orchards embroider
the horizon, their venerable limbs reach
down earthbound to sweeten the soil where
I sit worrying the grass, stuck in the past.
I cannot reap the harvest for
I remember the planting
for fear I will find the same.

Across the universe
another soul occupies as little space as
legs and arms and dreams allow. So
we shrink ourselves, hide in nature’s
pocket huddle in shadow’s closet, keep
the cold comfort of staying still.

Because
after digging what then? Will we gather
brooms, sweep it all under mossy carpet?
Maybe disappointed it is what we expect.
Maybe heartbroken it is all the old ghosts.
They pile stones at our feet in lieu of a greeting.

At least we can still speak. We can still
stand at least. Let it be staircase– these
stones, not a grave. Let it carry us out,
carry on. Let us gather how we have grown.

On Meeting the Horizon

Lilac didn’t know what to do, didn’t know
how to darken the days. She would spend
the faded hours dizzy and trembling,
moved by first love’s spinning, marked by
spring’s imminent arrival. It would
rain down like it always did then drizzle
and drip and dry her eyes. There’s no use
crying over violet, that shaded moment
made remedy, made love that will last for
all seasons, for leaves like so many hearts
on her sleeve. She will wear what was
lost– a meadow. She will find what was
left– a fragrance they both can keep,
the garden memory like bound bouquet.
Ribboned chatoyant silk trails a field
of yesterdays tinted not tainted by
the path they painted. She is not afraid
of dust for lilac owns the dawn. She is
not shamed by twilight for colors cast
in every light and though night velvet
drapes a shadow, she will morning make
a mauve advent, brush blend the edges
of fear, scatter splendor a legacy of mirrors.

Coming of Age

It was moon splashed face and
body summer splayed silver
seeping secrets she only dreamed
to weave. I could trace the fabric and
hear our shared history harbored
among the stitches. Another midnight
we slumbered there under familiar
blankets breathing Saturday morning and
spiced giggles. I should have scented
our conspiracy bottled the moment I mistook
for ritual. It was sacred to me.
toes twisting fingers twining
to tangle us inseparable.

Mother and daughter she would
claim us. She would name us. Every kiss
a dedication a daily affirmation. She was
mine. I should have concrete carved the days
instead devoured without aftertaste. I wish
the past would linger on my lips not leave
behind a future of closed doors
slammed shut by single syllables.
She used to story the space
our home. Now silence
now nothing to tell me
how to know you again.

When the cold light spills I am
drowning in our memories. Your
shimmer self shines me back to before
we were strangers tilting toward separate
before eyes closed to capture
the girl you left behind.

Artifacts

Assume normal and keep your stare
still looking straight ahead. You will see
chairs and tables and people and all signs
of the everyday you inhabit for now.
Assume sitting you could stand if you
lacked the discipline to remain unmoved
by the temptation of the certain unknown
that periphery of warped reality you could
begin to bend the edges close the gap and
come closer to familiar or maybe fright
because bravado could not know what was
left behind all manner of remnants.
Begin to sorrow sort bodies from bottles
empty and dry and used up and broken
for sharp edges they will always be
weapons brought by years of neglect.
Suppose not looking you forget the borders.
Suppose not caring you forget the afterland.

Pentimento

Balcony gazing on a summer day and wondering who composed the silence. My eyes already headache heavy, lead laden by the exercise of undressing the scene. I seek a naked mess, create chaos with my morning cup of coffee. There is satisfaction in what I uncover: a street vendor hoarse-voiced hawking almost genuine treasure, teenagers hunched and huddled making trouble or maybe not. The homeless couple on the corner is arguing again because the husband won’t stop singing. The wife will lose by force of habit, by force of nature. Music will have out the hours, will muddle melody the pavement and scatter sing the sky. And I will sit smiling, unsettling layers of looking. And I will wipe the sweat from my brow or paint from my brush. Colors cannot hide forever.

aerial

like leaves eddying
so my skirt
so my self spins
windswept wonder that
I am a blessing at first
to be borne by breeze
spilling secrets like
so many seeds
scatter my thoughts
already floating
already fairy flying
outside reality it is
no sin to stray from
the path for the harvest
is not mine this home
where only hovering
I hesitate over citrus
the clean scent of
unattached once a blessing
now revealed as a loss I am
lost and but for the prism
light I am all gray so still
the swirling silk my soul for
I wish to stay

Stay Golden
for B

Silence is a gateway drug.
We tried it once when words
couldn’t lift us, when platitudes
left us red-eyed, staring at
the ceiling we couldn’t climb.

There was a time when sound
signified substance, stirred us
up and so shaken together we
stayed, waging war and spring
cleaning and so much to do. We
cluttered ourselves a symphony and
tuned out until cymbals too loud,
our error apparent, we ended
the orchestra. We passed the baton
to some other couple seeking
spectacle. No longer our mouths
open and eyes and ears and
everything a wall. We changed
the passage. We built ourselves
a new habit. Suddenly silence
beating our hearts, holding our
hands, fingers twining our fates.

I could get used to this. I warn you,
you are my addiction. I sing you,
you are my strength and if I could
ancient our love I would pray
a temple, or tunic-draped I would
make us mythology.



On Waking

We start with sunrise only
on ordinary rising and shining
when moonlight meant eyes
closed, a mystery we couldn’t see,
when dreams resting on pillows
resting on promises we chose
to sleep away.

They were buried not broken,
not like the day, these promises.
We can dig them up, remember
how the colors brush the sky blushing,
paint ourselves a silver dawn tarnished
and treasured because the world
needs polishing.

We need more sunrise endings
on weak light window gazing
when midnight glow gloried us,
waltzed us waking through early hours,
when fairy tale unfurled once upon a time
upon a yellow brick road we chose
to pave the way.